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Echo by matsuehikari Echo :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 6 11 Baby cockatiel by matsuehikari Baby cockatiel :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 5 14 First time dad by matsuehikari First time dad :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 6 9 Virus by matsuehikari Virus :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 10 9 Ultima and Eternal by matsuehikari Ultima and Eternal :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 5 10 Sunset Hawaii 2 by matsuehikari Sunset Hawaii 2 :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 4 3 Sunset in Hawaii 1 by matsuehikari Sunset in Hawaii 1 :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 3 8 Eternal by matsuehikari Eternal :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 3 10 Jetfire why by matsuehikari Jetfire why :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 6 8 And he shall be called wonderful... by matsuehikari And he shall be called wonderful... :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 2 6
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Calm before the storm ch4
It was so perfect. He was so perfect, snuggled against her breast sleeping soundly. Lisa combed her fingers through Leiku’s baby fine hair while he slept; staring in awe of this answer to her prayers. How long she had waited to feel this warmth, this unconditional love for another being that children have for their parents and complete trust in that they will be cared for by them.  
She released a happy sigh as she watched over him. Meanwhile Lloyd was putting out the candles before he joined her in their bedroom when in the midst of doing so he bumped into the end table knocking it over, causing the drawer to fly open and spill its contents.
“Ow… Dog gone it-“Lloyd groaned setting it back up right and gathering up the mess. “I really should move this darn thing somewhere else.” Then he paused when he spotted the unfamiliar vial that he’d never seen before. Curious he picked the vial up and read the label. It was a strong sedative that co
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Literature
Calm before the storm ch.3
Back at home in living room lit with candle lights she sat in the rocking chair Lloyd had made with his own two hands; staring at the bottle she held in her hands. The contents were lethal if too much was taken, but in her current state of mind death was preferable. She couldn’t take it anymore. She couldn’t take the empty and painful feelings she felt when she saw mothers with their children, the cries of a babe when it called to his or her parents for attention.
It hurt. It hurt far too much for her to stand it anymore. Lloyd was away on business. He wouldn’t be back for quite sometime. She hoped he would forgive her for what she was about to do. She reached to unscrew the cap when she heard foot steps splashing through the rain outside. She quickly stashed it away in the drawer of the end table next to her just in time when Lloyd returned. Soaked to the bone he closed the door behind him and stepped into the living room trailing puddles behind him.  
“Li
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Zia and Elijah by matsuehikari Zia and Elijah :iconmatsuehikari:matsuehikari 27 9
Literature
Calm before the Storm ch.2
An hour ahead; a tall figure dashed across the open plain trailing blood behind him.
Stopping only a moment for a breather while a large gash hastily bandaged with a torn cloth bled profusely down his side and clutching his precious cargo protectively in his arms. Glancing back in the direction he previously came from anxiously at where in the distance where it looked as if the lightning was coming from not from the sky above but from the earth below.
He had to hurry. She needed him. She wouldn’t be able to keep it for long. He looked around frantically searching for a suitable place to hide the object in his arms. He spotted a long dead oak tree with a good size hollow within its trunk. He limped over and carefully placed it inside.
Before he could do anything more there was loud cry of pain accompanied by a bright flash of lightning coming from where he had been forced to leave her. Without another thought or glance back at what they both worked so hard to protect with their li
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Fun time at the zoo by matsuehikari
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Literature
Calm before the Storm ch.1
Thunder rumbled threatening in the distance as Lloyd rode on his cart back home; following the rocky beaten path. His state of mind seemed just as gloomily as the clouds above him.
His thoughts mulled over his beloved wife Lisa; wasn’t marriage supposed to be a time of joy and happiness? Sure it had its ups and downs and rough patches. But they’ve always managed to work things out before! Until they tried to start a family that is…
Lisa couldn’t wait to be a mother, to hold a bundle of joy made from the love they both shared. Sadly it just wasn’t meant to be. The first time she became pregnant they were so excited. Life was progressing like it should be. Then it happened, he had just gotten to the wash room to shave his morning stubble when he heard her cry out for him. “Lloyd!” it startled him so that he nicked his cheek with the razor. Dropping it into the sink and rushed to her side. “Lisa! What’s wrong?!” he skidded to a
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Incursion- Chapter Thirteen -vore- :icongoldfox20:GoldFox20 9 6
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Ro and Nathan 8
Maetal couldn’t believe his eyes as the woman disappeared into the side of the giant’s strange pants. Eyes darting upward, he moved forward cautiously. Did the giant know? Did he care? The acolyte swallowed as he sidled up to the strange opening, looking inside. Ro was there, leaning against the outer wall in an attempt to allow in more light. Maetal gaped at the strange sight before him. It was almost like a tent was built into the side of the giant’s pants!
Sweat glistened on Ro’s skin as she shifted in the strange space. Due to the material of the pants and Nathan’s natural body heat, it was really warm inside. Still, she wondered about its purpose. Carefully, she probed further, finding something firm but pliant beneath the white cloth of the pouch-tent. She found that it slanted upward and toward the giant’s body. Plucking at the white fabric, she figured out that there was another layer of cloth underneath, between her and the giant
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Literature
Where The Raven Sits Part 1
       Some things are kind of worth getting depressed over. Kadie Rode had a great example; she had watched her car get towed. Her car; her baby that she had worked so many summer jobs, shoveled snow, and swept up leaves to get. Four years of her life. Four years of work that had earned her so much pride from both her parents and her little clique of friends. She had washed it four times a week, every week, by hand. She had kept the tank full pretty much every day.  She bought it its own mini vacuum to keep it clean on the inside. And most importantly, she had named it. Kadie was named after her parents’ favorite indie rock band drummer, so it had made sense to name the car after the guitar player. But… not long after getting her not-brand-new-yet-still-all-hers-so-totally-worth-it car named Harper, she had racked up a ton of unpaid parking violations. How could the city expect her to pay tickets when she had just spent ALL her money on the best th
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R-R 3 Living Wars Chapter 20
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Chapter 20
The plan was to revise and move our group back up to Gargren. Only the kings knew of the change. And Quoll was not happy about it. But again, the order was set. Well, nearly everything. Ray and I would have to sneak out during the night when Quoll and Ellrick weren’t watching us. Tatuse took it upon himself, when he wasn’t in need of watching me, to inconspicuously keep his watch on Shida. The second of Tairen’s advisors didn’t act any odder then I knew him to. He kept himself as close to Sora as possible while sternly keeping himself in Say’s business. But Say and Sora were more than openly shocked to see the man. I had my own advisor troubles to worry over as I wandered through camp waiting for nightfall. Deiman was practically stalking me through camp, inquiring about my supposed signature on their treaty document. I had pointed him to Aalexander once already, and Aalexander bounced him right b
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  • Listening to: Bittersweet by Nano
  • Reading: GT, Legendz, Transformers fanfiction
  • Watching: Steven universe
  • Playing: Skyrim, minecraft PS3
  • Drinking: Ice tea
I don't know why things keep getting worse just as my life seems to be going well. I was so happy to see my mom get married to (now my step father) John who treats her the way my biological father should have. She's happy to be with someone who loves and respects her as an equal. 

Plus I have been taking some big steps to becoming more independent and helpful to my family by getting more solid work.

Then... once again life pulls the rug out right underneath my feet.
I had been hoping that me and my boyfriend would be able to become more closer by living in the same state together. But he tells me that he doesn't have the same feelings for me anymore more and chooses to remain single....

I thought we talked about our future together clearly but I guess I was putting my hopes on someone who didn't want to even try. 
I feel like every time I open my heart to someone that I only end up getting old wounds ripped back open. 
I let someone in only to be hurt and left behind just like always.

I'm not even going to try to get back at him or hate him for breaking my heart because as a Christian it wouldn't be right, plus it wouldn't make me feel any better. If I'm angry at anyone it's myself for letting my defenses down. 
If there's any emotion I feel towards him it's sorrow. I wished he at least tried to make it work, tried to be more dependent, to at least try to brave the frightening outside world instead of hiding or believing it only judges him on his faults then using them as his strength. 

It it took me a lot to go out on my own to see him and meet his family. I was way out of my comfort zone. I had never gone anywhere on my own before. 
I was scared but I did it because I loved him. I don't do things like that just for anyone. But I guess it was too much to ask for him to do the same. 

Whatever happens was his decision not mine. 
It hurts but there's nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart, because then I wouldn't have ever known how much it hurts when it breaks.
Echo
On February 11th at 12:44, I lost my baby girl Echo. She had had a old injury to her back legs a while back, a sprained hip is what they told me along with  arthritis. 
I had gotten medicine to help her. it seemed to be helping but the next day she couldn't get up. She wouldn't eat and when I tried to help her stand up her back legs wouldn't support her and she'd just  collapse back down.
I realized that she was giving me all the signs that it was time. So we took her to the vet.
they told me that she wasn't going to recover and that it would be less painful for her if she was put to sleep. 
I had to do what was right for her, I couldn't let her suffer as much as I loved her. 
We buried her in my stepdads backyard next to one of his own cats to keep her company. 

Echo was the only cat I had ever had for so long, from baby to adult. She was 16 to 17 years old when she died.
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matsuehikari

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Current Residence: hawaii
Favourite style of art: Anime
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  • Listening to: Bittersweet by Nano
  • Reading: GT, Legendz, Transformers fanfiction
  • Watching: Steven universe
  • Playing: Skyrim, minecraft PS3
  • Drinking: Ice tea
I don't know why things keep getting worse just as my life seems to be going well. I was so happy to see my mom get married to (now my step father) John who treats her the way my biological father should have. She's happy to be with someone who loves and respects her as an equal. 

Plus I have been taking some big steps to becoming more independent and helpful to my family by getting more solid work.

Then... once again life pulls the rug out right underneath my feet.
I had been hoping that me and my boyfriend would be able to become more closer by living in the same state together. But he tells me that he doesn't have the same feelings for me anymore more and chooses to remain single....

I thought we talked about our future together clearly but I guess I was putting my hopes on someone who didn't want to even try. 
I feel like every time I open my heart to someone that I only end up getting old wounds ripped back open. 
I let someone in only to be hurt and left behind just like always.

I'm not even going to try to get back at him or hate him for breaking my heart because as a Christian it wouldn't be right, plus it wouldn't make me feel any better. If I'm angry at anyone it's myself for letting my defenses down. 
If there's any emotion I feel towards him it's sorrow. I wished he at least tried to make it work, tried to be more dependent, to at least try to brave the frightening outside world instead of hiding or believing it only judges him on his faults then using them as his strength. 

It it took me a lot to go out on my own to see him and meet his family. I was way out of my comfort zone. I had never gone anywhere on my own before. 
I was scared but I did it because I loved him. I don't do things like that just for anyone. But I guess it was too much to ask for him to do the same. 

Whatever happens was his decision not mine. 
It hurts but there's nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart, because then I wouldn't have ever known how much it hurts when it breaks.

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JackTheGiantSaver Featured By Owner May 10, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist Writer
Thanks a million for the watch ^3^

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Thanks again for more favs!
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thanks for dropping by~
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TwinGiants Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2017  Professional Writer
Thank you for the fav, sweetie.
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Your welcome :)
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Thanks for the :+fav:!
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Your welcome :)
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i did sumit the page 1,i hope that you like it :)
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